Wow~ AmAzING~~

wow~ wondering wat is so amazing here?? Tah...tah...tah....tah~ the suprising thing is that i saw the primary school in someplace in Ipoh got computer and even projector tim!!!! Surprise?? em...coz that place is call Bercham which in my understanding is quite a remote place somewhere in Ipoh...although i felt that they dun use the computer that often but relly felt happy for them...Muahaha...coz even in KL n PJ area here where i teach, those rich primary school also dun hav these facilities n luxury...HErm...sommemore they hav a good canteen n very reasonable price for food~

How i wish that in my time i was stil in Ipoh that time, we could have these kinda facilities..then i on have so many 'culture shock' when i 1st came to KL then~ Really felt like im an idiot and "orang kampung in big city "feel...Well Well~ jus happy for them loz..have a good education and be a good citizen, good country 'dong liong'~...

Fianlly i have move in to the hostel, living with a malay gal~ herm...haven meet her though..(hope she is a nice person,hate to fight with room mate)~now my room is stil in a total mess even mattress also haven sent to me by the office!!! hopefully tonight can hav it...THe whole floor also mostly is malay...seems im the alien there but they all also quite nice ppl..actually i really dun wan to stay in hostel if onlu my mum n dad can let me stay at home~ HaiZz.. this is where the family problem comes in....not anything serious but they are serious unhappy with my result last 2 semester...Only GOd know that i have try best~ HaizZ...

sobzzz....

Jus a month a ago, i thought things had change to the way i want it n hope it to be...i was really happy back at that time...n realy 'gam dong' by the way ppl treat me..i thought all that's i've gave have finally returned~i stil can remember that granny had taught me since small that-- "if u wan ppl treat u good, u must treat ppl good 1st", so here i am holding her words but herm~ jus realise reality had let me down...PPl not necessary wil treat u good but maybe only wil feel fan o lazy to bother to understand what u wan o think...o to care u...

Im really very tired lately...emotionally...think too much...I was wondering how can my brain hold so much thoughts at the same times...my heart also is the most wonderful organ of all!!! can hold so much love n feelings...nearly drown myself in by the feelings...

Very very very sad sad...* sobZZzzzz* y life jus give me what i want n let me be happy...i dunno how long wil it take for me to stand back...alot i want to say here...but seems words r jus not enuf to tell my feelings...*blur*

SO here hope i can take the chance to wish ya all the best in life and achieve wat u've been dreaming of...Will always treat u good n cherish u forever...

MooD SwINGZzz~

Erm...really having a bad bad mOOd~maybe it's from the PMS..Hehehe...one of the thing that boys dun have to endure...Lasat nite when im sitting alone in the room jus suddenly i broke into tears~ Sobzz...Jus felt very very bad n depressed...felt like all of the world had leave me aside~

My depression somehow have nothing to do with my PMs thingy..but jus from some certain people.(Hmm,i think no ppl wil understand how a person have the great power to make me suffer n depressed)..Well, guess i care too much n too sensitive~ Til even dreams also wil got the same image running in my mind over and over again~I felt that i nid a lot of secure feelings...im too dubious too!!! Oh..God, i dunno how to express my feelings now...I have to find my dictionary to check on it~ Oops...

Read from a horoscope tat im a sincere lover..(hehe...pei chin felt that she is one herself~)Keke...When i love, i jus pour out all the love in me~ sacrifice everything, maybe life too if i have to~ But somehow someone told me that this is too scary for him !!! =} Besides im a royal lover too~ Muahaha...tell u guys a secret la--I had been secretly admire a boy for 7 years...!!! *BlUSh* Then got another stil in my heart...Hehe...this time i dunno how long he'll stay in there...but i guess wil b forever~

One of the topic in our fren'ly chat is about::Wil u stil can b good fren with ur ex?
Erm...wat a good q which i also wanted to know so much!!! But for me, i wish it to b a "wil"...Of coz under certain circumstances...jus for us to b couple, both if us must know each other very deeply n understand each other's wan n need, so even if so
oneday hav to b apart also stil it's hard to find another ppl that can understand u so much de loz..So for me, i wil cherish de lo...the friendship and the sweet memories...Herm..

There's always alot i wan to say but something sometime it's better jus leave it in heart...


PoSTED BY PeI ChIN[bad mood]

Changes

A friend called lately from England, really surprise when pick up the call but really happy also coz really long time no see n talk also..( surprise when i can recognise ur voice is it?)...*lAuGh*...He reallly change a lot since i last time heard from him...His pure chinese accent way of speaking mandarin make me kinda surprise and i admit i really need time to get used to it~ herm...im not sure is it he changed too much o maybe it's me that never change n still am the same old PeI cHIn as all of you knows..
O maybe it's the essential steps he had to take in order to fit in the different culture and society...There are more chinese ppl in his community..so,y am i not surprise...Hehe..But jus watever happen to you, i jus hope u won forget where ur root n ur family n ur home...n of coz~~ ME!!!! Okie, looking forward to hear from u again n hope u all da best out there~...

1st wEeK oF ScHOoL

With blurry eyes and shaky hands, im here again, the most hang out plce- the Science Fac comp lab updating my blog...Very bored~As im having hell lot of break time but cant go home is a big turtore for me..Herm~ somehow, i should have use the time i have now to really work through my new course thingy..Aiks~ im lazy...i confess~ haha...

My worst n most teribble timetable is at Monday n Wednesday, with 8 hours gap in between..But tuesday n thursday also not bad...with 4 hours break also...Muahaha~somehow if i really go home,i sure won have the enthusiasm to come back in afternoon for class de le...Herm..really a big problem for me..HaiZz

Last dayYY...

Today, 050706 is my last day of work at Sweetly Bakery house lu...haha...so happy coz finally can release myself from that bored place!!Em..actually won be really mm seh tak to leave the place also ha...coz only work for a short time but sure gonna miss the bread~ (em...yummy~ especially the onion cheese)!!!everyday's work also been the same, only depend on the time the bread gonna come out form the stove~haizZ..everyday jus wash n mop n clean...Til my hand also damage by the dish cleaner...Haha...worry la..later no guy wanna hold my hand already then how~???

But somehow here im now at home really wondering wat to do tomolo n the days afterwards?Herm..im really this kinda person tat cant let myself b free n nth do jus sit at home...tat wil b really bored for me!!!Really gonna kill me~Em...haha...

Then also went to check my eyes n spec also coz i suspect that my long sighted had gone serious...Mm...the optometrist really given me a very thorough n long detail check ~ha...really mm hou yi si when he tot tat i wanna change my spec la..but luckily he din show any anger when i tilo him im not...Yeah, really my left eye had gone deeper by 25 degree...become 125 degree liao...HaizZ,cant even wear contact lens liao lu..

Em...someone had made me realise tat i dun like to go back home..Really~ dun b surprise coz it's true!!! I somehow dun like to stay at home, tat's y i grab every chance i got to work during holiday~ I jus feel like i cant breath at home..maybe too small for me..i dun hav my own space,except my room...my favourite activity time is at mid-nite coz left me alone at living room...Herm..like the deep silence feeling so much~!!!

Gonna start school soon loz..hope there's stil way to change my messy timetable..i wan to b with my frenzZ..dun wanna spend 8 hours alone at the library lah...Haiz..i stil haven got a nice plan of my future semester~~ =( Oh...God pls help me~~

BUsY weeKend

Now is 12am ++ liao loz...kinda tired but jus not the mood to went to bed so i was sitting here, updating my thingy to let u guys see n also reading other ppl's also...haha,especially my frenZ de...really given me chance to know u all better,those words i dun hav chance to say when v all meet jus hope i can express to u all~ =D!! raining hard outside but with songs i love playing n had a wonderful gathering jus now,im very contented~~ Full~...But tat's not happy i know~...jus long time dun hav tis kinda feel liao..always wat in my heart is hollow~ haizZ...
Today had a gathering at the Selayang BUddhist there coz our secretary- Hai Tang is leaving us soon for England lu~ (although jus for a year but really there would not b so many laughters when she's gone)...went to say goodbye to her..herm..Take care la my frenzZ!! hehe...(ur sleeping bag stil with me la~ )..not to forget others~ Jonathan,You Fong,Siao Chi, Ting Ying~ being with u guys make me feel younger n more playful~~!!
Em..hopefully tomolo gonna b my last day work loz..coz really very sien liao..Mauhaha..but happy to know a fews frens there de~Haha, although v've been worked together only for a day o two but gonna miss u guys if i go liao~ So hopefully wil have chance to meet up again!!! MuackZZzz