Im BaCk~~

After such a long period hasn't been updating stuff here, finally im back...Seems like this piece of little 'kebun' already ruin...it's all my fault loz..too busy with the multiply blog til forgot about this 'kebun'Herm~

Had change my room to C 907, hehe...highest level (9th floor)...The advantage moving back to block C is that more comfortable living in the gal's block again..hehe..been had to endure the uncomfortable stares from guys when sometimes i go down there to refill water with a short pant...Then closer to the college gate loz..

But the disadvantage is that have to wait for lift...sometime nid to wait quite long...troubled alot...THe room is basically more like an oven loz...Hot n hot...the fan is on for 24 hours a day 7 days a week, i try off it once..wow, the effect is jus unbearable...Gosh...haiz..
Guess sometimes all the things have 2 side, good must come with bad side...haha

Herm~~ everyone is sick!!!

Chiu~~ haha...dun surprise...it's jus my sneezing sound...dunno wat had happen to my nose coz it jus won stop sneezing!!! i blow my nose dunno how many times already... then feel like a bit dizzy and mayb got fever..im not so sure about it...summo headache til wanna explode~ (mayb a bit too exagerated)hehe... Oohh...sore throat also causing mu voice becomes very "sExY"...

Herm..seems like everyone is sick lately..Jus now when i went to c doc..the whole clinic is crowded by students...waited so long to get my turn..then the doc jus din even look at me..!!! he jus write the presciption according to wat is said to the nurse...haiz..(baliah)...oops...

Long time din c my room mate ald...she is also sick..but her sickness is very much more serious than i do..her might b cancer...I really worry about her...such a young age with such a pretty look~ Y?? GOD pls protect her...N i promise i wil pray for her~

Haizz...til here i guess, coz gonna late for class loz...

Wow~ AmAzING~~

wow~ wondering wat is so amazing here?? Tah...tah...tah....tah~ the suprising thing is that i saw the primary school in someplace in Ipoh got computer and even projector tim!!!! Surprise?? em...coz that place is call Bercham which in my understanding is quite a remote place somewhere in Ipoh...although i felt that they dun use the computer that often but relly felt happy for them...Muahaha...coz even in KL n PJ area here where i teach, those rich primary school also dun hav these facilities n luxury...HErm...sommemore they hav a good canteen n very reasonable price for food~

How i wish that in my time i was stil in Ipoh that time, we could have these kinda facilities..then i on have so many 'culture shock' when i 1st came to KL then~ Really felt like im an idiot and "orang kampung in big city "feel...Well Well~ jus happy for them loz..have a good education and be a good citizen, good country 'dong liong'~...

Fianlly i have move in to the hostel, living with a malay gal~ herm...haven meet her though..(hope she is a nice person,hate to fight with room mate)~now my room is stil in a total mess even mattress also haven sent to me by the office!!! hopefully tonight can hav it...THe whole floor also mostly is malay...seems im the alien there but they all also quite nice ppl..actually i really dun wan to stay in hostel if onlu my mum n dad can let me stay at home~ HaiZz.. this is where the family problem comes in....not anything serious but they are serious unhappy with my result last 2 semester...Only GOd know that i have try best~ HaizZ...

sobzzz....

Jus a month a ago, i thought things had change to the way i want it n hope it to be...i was really happy back at that time...n realy 'gam dong' by the way ppl treat me..i thought all that's i've gave have finally returned~i stil can remember that granny had taught me since small that-- "if u wan ppl treat u good, u must treat ppl good 1st", so here i am holding her words but herm~ jus realise reality had let me down...PPl not necessary wil treat u good but maybe only wil feel fan o lazy to bother to understand what u wan o think...o to care u...

Im really very tired lately...emotionally...think too much...I was wondering how can my brain hold so much thoughts at the same times...my heart also is the most wonderful organ of all!!! can hold so much love n feelings...nearly drown myself in by the feelings...

Very very very sad sad...* sobZZzzzz* y life jus give me what i want n let me be happy...i dunno how long wil it take for me to stand back...alot i want to say here...but seems words r jus not enuf to tell my feelings...*blur*

SO here hope i can take the chance to wish ya all the best in life and achieve wat u've been dreaming of...Will always treat u good n cherish u forever...

MooD SwINGZzz~

Erm...really having a bad bad mOOd~maybe it's from the PMS..Hehehe...one of the thing that boys dun have to endure...Lasat nite when im sitting alone in the room jus suddenly i broke into tears~ Sobzz...Jus felt very very bad n depressed...felt like all of the world had leave me aside~

My depression somehow have nothing to do with my PMs thingy..but jus from some certain people.(Hmm,i think no ppl wil understand how a person have the great power to make me suffer n depressed)..Well, guess i care too much n too sensitive~ Til even dreams also wil got the same image running in my mind over and over again~I felt that i nid a lot of secure feelings...im too dubious too!!! Oh..God, i dunno how to express my feelings now...I have to find my dictionary to check on it~ Oops...

Read from a horoscope tat im a sincere lover..(hehe...pei chin felt that she is one herself~)Keke...When i love, i jus pour out all the love in me~ sacrifice everything, maybe life too if i have to~ But somehow someone told me that this is too scary for him !!! =} Besides im a royal lover too~ Muahaha...tell u guys a secret la--I had been secretly admire a boy for 7 years...!!! *BlUSh* Then got another stil in my heart...Hehe...this time i dunno how long he'll stay in there...but i guess wil b forever~

One of the topic in our fren'ly chat is about::Wil u stil can b good fren with ur ex?
Erm...wat a good q which i also wanted to know so much!!! But for me, i wish it to b a "wil"...Of coz under certain circumstances...jus for us to b couple, both if us must know each other very deeply n understand each other's wan n need, so even if so
oneday hav to b apart also stil it's hard to find another ppl that can understand u so much de loz..So for me, i wil cherish de lo...the friendship and the sweet memories...Herm..

There's always alot i wan to say but something sometime it's better jus leave it in heart...


PoSTED BY PeI ChIN[bad mood]

Changes

A friend called lately from England, really surprise when pick up the call but really happy also coz really long time no see n talk also..( surprise when i can recognise ur voice is it?)...*lAuGh*...He reallly change a lot since i last time heard from him...His pure chinese accent way of speaking mandarin make me kinda surprise and i admit i really need time to get used to it~ herm...im not sure is it he changed too much o maybe it's me that never change n still am the same old PeI cHIn as all of you knows..
O maybe it's the essential steps he had to take in order to fit in the different culture and society...There are more chinese ppl in his community..so,y am i not surprise...Hehe..But jus watever happen to you, i jus hope u won forget where ur root n ur family n ur home...n of coz~~ ME!!!! Okie, looking forward to hear from u again n hope u all da best out there~...

1st wEeK oF ScHOoL

With blurry eyes and shaky hands, im here again, the most hang out plce- the Science Fac comp lab updating my blog...Very bored~As im having hell lot of break time but cant go home is a big turtore for me..Herm~ somehow, i should have use the time i have now to really work through my new course thingy..Aiks~ im lazy...i confess~ haha...

My worst n most teribble timetable is at Monday n Wednesday, with 8 hours gap in between..But tuesday n thursday also not bad...with 4 hours break also...Muahaha~somehow if i really go home,i sure won have the enthusiasm to come back in afternoon for class de le...Herm..really a big problem for me..HaiZz

Last dayYY...

Today, 050706 is my last day of work at Sweetly Bakery house lu...haha...so happy coz finally can release myself from that bored place!!Em..actually won be really mm seh tak to leave the place also ha...coz only work for a short time but sure gonna miss the bread~ (em...yummy~ especially the onion cheese)!!!everyday's work also been the same, only depend on the time the bread gonna come out form the stove~haizZ..everyday jus wash n mop n clean...Til my hand also damage by the dish cleaner...Haha...worry la..later no guy wanna hold my hand already then how~???

But somehow here im now at home really wondering wat to do tomolo n the days afterwards?Herm..im really this kinda person tat cant let myself b free n nth do jus sit at home...tat wil b really bored for me!!!Really gonna kill me~Em...haha...

Then also went to check my eyes n spec also coz i suspect that my long sighted had gone serious...Mm...the optometrist really given me a very thorough n long detail check ~ha...really mm hou yi si when he tot tat i wanna change my spec la..but luckily he din show any anger when i tilo him im not...Yeah, really my left eye had gone deeper by 25 degree...become 125 degree liao...HaizZ,cant even wear contact lens liao lu..

Em...someone had made me realise tat i dun like to go back home..Really~ dun b surprise coz it's true!!! I somehow dun like to stay at home, tat's y i grab every chance i got to work during holiday~ I jus feel like i cant breath at home..maybe too small for me..i dun hav my own space,except my room...my favourite activity time is at mid-nite coz left me alone at living room...Herm..like the deep silence feeling so much~!!!

Gonna start school soon loz..hope there's stil way to change my messy timetable..i wan to b with my frenzZ..dun wanna spend 8 hours alone at the library lah...Haiz..i stil haven got a nice plan of my future semester~~ =( Oh...God pls help me~~

BUsY weeKend

Now is 12am ++ liao loz...kinda tired but jus not the mood to went to bed so i was sitting here, updating my thingy to let u guys see n also reading other ppl's also...haha,especially my frenZ de...really given me chance to know u all better,those words i dun hav chance to say when v all meet jus hope i can express to u all~ =D!! raining hard outside but with songs i love playing n had a wonderful gathering jus now,im very contented~~ Full~...But tat's not happy i know~...jus long time dun hav tis kinda feel liao..always wat in my heart is hollow~ haizZ...
Today had a gathering at the Selayang BUddhist there coz our secretary- Hai Tang is leaving us soon for England lu~ (although jus for a year but really there would not b so many laughters when she's gone)...went to say goodbye to her..herm..Take care la my frenzZ!! hehe...(ur sleeping bag stil with me la~ )..not to forget others~ Jonathan,You Fong,Siao Chi, Ting Ying~ being with u guys make me feel younger n more playful~~!!
Em..hopefully tomolo gonna b my last day work loz..coz really very sien liao..Mauhaha..but happy to know a fews frens there de~Haha, although v've been worked together only for a day o two but gonna miss u guys if i go liao~ So hopefully wil have chance to meet up again!!! MuackZZzz

Thanks my dear FrEnsss....

Went for a movie with an unexpected fren, haha...never thought we wil go movie together...haha,but quite funny also de la..Thanks ya my frenZ!!! Funny movie also de~ em..Also consider a busy day for us ppl coz Kenneth back from Aust to kepong let us hav a look at his rounder chubby cute face and also the big day for my Didi- Chek(Jack Jack) =D!!! So we went for a drink loz..

Hm...dunno y de, the topic suddenly point towards me..Em,really gam Zie u guys all so 'guan sam' me de...u guys really make me realise alot n thanks alot!! I really wil make a nice plan de le...i sometime hate myself for letting ppl worry about me de..eventhough i got problem also i wil try to keep it to myself if can~haha...jus dun wanna ppl worry but really touchy de..knowing u guys care for me de~~Sobxx...i wil make the best out of the worst de..Be Happy Ya =P

Monday --- 270606

Last nite doing the thingy til off liao from the time track..so a bit late for bed..so today really tired n headache =( Then after home went with mum to hav a look at the furniture shop coz I gonna buy another Study table loz..(hehe..so happy la..finnaly can hav my own table,no nid share with my brother)~_~

Em..jus wanna tell abit about my feeling now..it's a mixture of relieve but somehow deep down inside there's some part of my heart aching..n feel like a bit numb also..Herm =<..Coz finnaly i knew wat the ppl thinking and know wat to do..Hehe..(really it's time to tidy up ur heart n move on loz...coz ppl already dunno move on to which country o which universe already loz..) Aiks~ jus hope that no matter wat happen in the past, present n future wil not affect us..our friendship...I wil constant remind myself where is my limit de~ coz once the love spilt out, it's gonna flood n kill peopla if u dunno how to control it...So, here i am learning to control my 'love potion'... So tat's all for today la..it's time to Ooi Ooi loz.. zzZZZZ

Happy birthday!!

"Happy birthday to u~~ happy birthday to Hui Wei~~...."26 of June is my best fren's cow one la..21st wor..real meaningful de..SO me n Yun Heng n Ah Lai n Pui pui n Yoke Chin n Pik Kei( sorry if i spell ur name wrongly =P) went to celebrate with wei wei at the Kepong Japanese Buffet Kitchen..well, should i say AGAIN? hehe..coz been here for the 4th times liao...really feel abit bore..But anyway, today is a happpy day n im hungry til can swallow a cow..(Kidding la)..we eat liao almost two hours la..realy full n plus the piece of choc cheese cake i ate!!! walau~ really heavy...Sorry ya guys..if the cake was not delecious...coz also the taste not so good liao coz not so fresh de..Sorry!!!

Em..when we talk about the thing on sunday nite,hehe..she really got abit touchy inside coz can hear from her voice...my dear,there's nothing to worry about de coz we r very 'xing fu' compare to may others le..n when u lonely sure we wil always by ur side de~ lonelyness is scary i know but we all have to learn to live with it...Actually i also learning it..So pal,really love ya n i will cherish our friendship forever!!=>

PaNgKoR....

Erm..holiday now...but the pangkor thingy is actually long ago de trip lar..but i haven have the mood to write it all out..so I guess now i hav finnaly tik hei sam gon to write it out la..Went there for 3 days n 2 nite,erm...normal la..then hehe...whole gang also gal de~~Hehe...all ppl also worry la..dunno wat wil happen the all of us if got bad guy!! Em..actually i not yet confirm wan to go o not until the nite before!!so i packed only by the early morning before we set out..

Erm..so early early i already hav to persuade my mum to fetch me go KTM lorr..then i was late de..luckily hui wei wait for me there...then haha...we sort of dunno to which station we sud stop to go PUDU take bus~haha...then u stop at the PUDURAYA station but i told hui wei, "eh, y no ppl here with luggage de?"haha..then we go n ask the auntie at the counter lo..then she said "ah Moi arr...u kena pergi ke Plaza Rakyat lah!!"Then we basically hav to take the opposite way train to go back loz..haha..luckily the train is very fast de!!

then we went through the 5 hour bus ride...the ride almost kill my backbone de...coz those kampung road not even n nice like tat...after survive the ride we go jetty take ferry to the island loz..
we book liao the coral bay resort...herm...but my god~ it's very diff from the way it look in photo than in real...the room is smaller than a tau yun larr..d*** it la..F***K la..then we all decide to change the room ler..hermmm so we spent the next few hour to visit the island's temple n check out the other resort available.

Things are not wat u think

Em...the story begin like this ~ There was two angels, one young n one elder angel..They had went down the man world to visti the people. One rainy n cold night, both of them had reached a small village and come to a poor house." Knoeck Knock..." then a old man opened the door and lead them in the hse..the poor couple give them their best food n give them their bed to sleep on while the couple sleep on the floor..Then the next morning,they were awaken by the cry of the poor wife. SHe cried bcoz of their only cow died last nite. The couple was very sad cow the only valueble thing had gone.
Then the young angel ask the elder one :"y din u save the cow last nite?"
The elder one said:"things are not wat u seen..., Last nite i saw the Angel of Death had come for the poor wife, so i let the cow take the wife's place."

Then the next day, they want to a big village and reached the vilage cheif house. They rich couple let them in very unwillingly..Then they gave them the leftover food and let them sleep at store room only..AT nite when they are freezing, the elder saw a hole at the wall and mended it.. The young one ask him:" Y u so nice to these kinda horrible people?"
THe old one reply: "things r not wat u think it is."
He said:" from the hole i can see the gold so i mended the hole so that he cant find the treasure...."

Finally the young ones understand...Things are usually NOT the way you think they Were...so u guys..hope u can get some lesson o some light from this little story..




THE END

ji xun ying

em...i got something to share with u guys...that's y i am here again to tell some of it.

last week i went to a training camp,organised by the Selayang Buhhist Center...it was a 2 days 1 nite camp n we jus stay at the center...actually i was not very willing to go at 1st but...haiz..as a responsible person,n i am one of the commitee,so that's y i went anyway..

i report at 3 pm n then straight i went to 2nd floor the buddha chamber for ice breaking programme...hehe, though i dunno y they were doing tis coz v know each of us very well liao..after that v do some dance steps for warm up then hav a 2 hour class listen to a talk by one of the commitee of the Selangor buddhist center...quite boring actually...i am very dizzy and hungry~~hm...luckily dinner is coming up...

Aikz..they only give us one n a half hour to get ourself prepare for class...Em,prob is there are only 2 washroom for 15 gals of us...ha...but i am very smart lo coz i straight go to bath room before the others did~!!haha...
then nite also got two class to attend...em...quite tired also la but can learn a lot of good lessons...em..really worth my time...blabla...after the very last the very boring discussion for the day, v can hav out supper n lastly not forgetting our prayer to the buddha b4 v went to sleep..to be truth, i hate all the rules and prayer and all those pose when pray...i seem cant remember all the pose and mantra~~~

v all gals sleep at 4th floor lo...the big room actually is a dance room de,but very apacious...with window n mirror all around..a bit scary so i tend to sqeeze to honney's side...hehe...wow, man~~wat a cold nite tat day~~cold til a put a blanket and add another jacket only can tahan til morning...haha...

then fours hours later. v hav to got up by the ring of bell...HAiz...very tired and dunna wake up la...then v hav breakfast...fried mee hun with the overnite reheated vege curry...em, abit make me wanna vomit seeing those food...but i hav to finish anyway coz v r not allow to waste food there...eat til me like face white white ...
after tat v go to MRR2 park to hear the Si Fu giv talk..hm.. actually very song la..can hear si fu from taiwan talk n she is very humour also...learn alot from her...she is a uni grad also but dunno y she became nun...em,really wondeering~~
v got game coming afterwards...n i bleed liao..but small wound only la..

very tired on the way back..n i miss home n my about to finish assignment!!but still got 2 more class to go n more discussion....haiz...so i lie a bit to out ying zhang saying tat i fever n bleed...haha...finnaly i free to go only at 5 something~~hpew..wat a tired weekend!!

7/12/05 wednesday

Long time din blog lioa lu...actually also dunno got ppl wil see what i wrote o not...Hm...very boring lately...working in a english learning center to teach small kids reading skill..weird working hour there,work morning n then sometime work from 6 to 8pm,cant go jog lol..too bad!!But here i really found out child is easily influence by the environment, especially their parents.So hopefully parent can be a good role model to their own child...make me realise really BIG responsibility to be a good parents...

happy yeppy week

HEhe...it's gonna be my happy n yeppy week lol...today fimish my last paper oledi which is Math for Chemistry, all those math we study in F6 but replace it with Chem Equation!!Quite hard lo especially for me coz i HATE Math de lol...last nite i happy n nervous til cant sleep,,so eye open wide wide til 3 or 4am onyl sleep ar...very early hor...??haha!!now quite tired lu...sigh..cham a, i holiday then u all exam...Realy not a good timing o...

hehe...exam week

Sigh...exam liao lo...just went through a very turtoring week!! 3 sbujects all pack in 3 days n some more next tuesday got 2 subjects in 1 day!!Die lol...those 3 subjects also not very good oso...hai...But after next tuesday will be my free day!!! release from prison liao...been burn night oil whole week...study till eye so sore til must wear spec wherever i go~~if not cant see thing, too tired liao..Hm...wish me luck la n i wish good luck to all other got exam also de ppl!!

Exam ppl

Sigh...exam lo...final in 1st sem!! Very nervous but no mood to study also..maybe i think too much le lately~Got alot of thing that not very happy happened but guess all come n go depend how i want to take it...to those who is having exam now, GOOD LUck la...n work hard....Alas...i wil try not to dreamss so much liao lo...hehe...

Jay

Today is the release date of Jay's latest album - November's Chopin...Bro go book liao n can take today...hm..heard liao, it's quite ok lo, softer n slower music but my favourite is "wind" n "night song"..haven really finish d whole album la...from now on,24 hours, 60min per hour n 60 sec per min will get to hear those song!!! My bro is really crazy de in love with him..Kind of like his god ald!! last nite fren ask me go to "tian xin yue yuan"wu tai ju which is very famous de, i always wish to go la...but under certain circumtances, no ticket for me...so cant go...wish tat i can see the vcd also enuf lo..to those who got the chance, pls enjoy the show...
Sobx...exam is coming lo,but i cant seem to really study cant finish my preparation if like this...Mm..must try to concentrate , dun think so much liao..sky fall down also must study 1st la....